ELOQUENT FURY - ALICIA BANKS

RADICAL COLUMNS FOR REVOLUTIONARY INTELLECTUALS

  • HOMOHATRED IN REGGAE MUSIC - WHERE IS THE ONE LOVE?!

    1996

  • TOP 10 BIBLICAL MYTHS ABOUT HOMOSEXUALS

    1994
  • HOMELESS HOMOSEXUAL HYPOCRITES

    1995

     

    To assume that one is ungodly simply because one is homosexual is to perfectly demonstrate the sins of judgement and bigotry. There is a brazen group of arrogantly ignorant, black, pseudo-christian, gaybashing homosexuals that calls itself “Powerful Change”. They actually epitomize a 

     

    “Disempowered Charade” as they pretend to be “recovered” from homosexuality and urge others to pretend to be similarly "healed" from our homosexual natures. Fortunately, they prey only upon weak fellow cowardly homosexual fools...

     

    I pen the letter below as a public reply from all happy homosexuals like myself. I know that God loves me just as I am. I also know that God made me a lesbian at my birth. And, I know that weak and unhappy homosexuals are not in my tribe. I take pride in never having shared any spaces with such miserable, blasphemous, pathetic, and self-hating souls. In fact, my divine mission in life is to expose and evade them eternally. And, I sincerely thank and praise God for that sacred duty.

     



    AN OPEN LETTER TO DELUDED, DISHONEST, DIMWITTED, AND DEPRESSED BLACK GAYS AND LESBIANS

     

    Is there a longing in your heart to come out? Has your struggle with sexual honesty kept you from the inner peace that only God and truth can bring? If so, it's time for a change. As your sister who has had positive experiences with homosexuality, I am offering you my help to make it back to that place where you were born with God. Or, if you have never experienced the joy of knowing God, I invite you to read on...

     

    Gospel music pioneer Walter Hawkins sang a song many of us heard growing up. Do you remember it?: "What is this....that won’t let me be ashamed...."

     

    We are nothing alike. We are very different! You are ashamed. We are not. But, we understand that shame. Perhaps more than anyone else, we understand the pain that you may have suffered at the hands of people who said they represented God, but failed to give you the compassion, love, and acceptance you needed to find the courage beneath the wounds their hatred and lies carved into your heart. We know how it feels to sit in churches where you are the object of ridicule and scorn by gaybashing heterosexuals who are far less righteous and godly than you are. We can identify with the intense struggle not to give in to something that your heart knows is right and natural, but your weak mind has been taught is wrong.

     

    We take this opportunity to call on every African-American church to stop contributing to the anguish and suffering of homosexual black men and women, and begin promoting healing through the ministry of sexual reality and honesty. We urge these churches to stop destroying the souls of their miseducated gaybashing flock like the lying members of “Powerful Change”.

     

    Yet the church and its perpetual demonization of gays and lesbians are not our only problems. In our own community, many of the new HIV infections are in men of color, and black women are the greatest statistical victims of these infected black men. Hundreds of black men and women are dying silently of AIDS as a result of shame, guilt, and self-hatred. They die so primarily because pseudo-christian fools continue to define AIDS as a gay disease, while sexually confused persons and sexually hedonistic heterosexuals die daily from this U.S. government crafted biololgical warfare.

     

    Far too many heterosexuals and homosexuals continue to have condomless sex without disclosing the fact that they are infected. Sex parties and pornography exploit the loneliness many hedonistic humans experience. From music videos to magazines, heterosexual abandon rules and sells all.

     

    Racism is a global cancer. While whites continue to make advances politically, financially, and educationally, blacks struggle for basic equality in America's communities. Unfortunately, white gay racism and elitism continue to grow more rapidly than any other racism or elitism.

     

    On top of all of this are global substance abuses, and sexual fetishes, which reduce the quality of life for every one every where. For financial gain, some unprofessional, uneducated, and gaybashing therapists have spread falsehoods about homosexuality. To date, all credible scientific or biological studies acknowledge genetic causation for sexual orientation. Studies conducted by individuals with a predisposed agenda to prove that homosexuality is unnatural continue to toil in vain. Irrespective of what any study may ever prove, religious lies will always degrade homosexuals and dismiss the universal nature of homosexuality.

     

    We believe that this is a primary source of the suffering of homosexuals. Lies delay healing but truths bring freedoms. Accepting a lie keeps you in denial. Rejecting a lie keeps you in revolution. We need a revolutionary revelation from God. We must pray that God continues to bless us as we rebel against those who hate and lie on homosexuals in God’s name. In a state of sexual denial, there can be no innner peace.

     

    If you truly want to save your lives, don't take it into your own hands, submit yourself to God. It's a journey many lying “former gays and lesbians” will never find the courage and honesty to walk through. That's why we are making a special effort to reach out to those who may not have heard that God made them gay and loves them just as they are.

     

    Please understand that the challenges facing you are not entirely caused by "homophobia" and hate. They are also caused by ancient escalating religious lies and increasingly arrogant religious ignorance. And, please know that the way to escape those problems is definitely by "coming out” of abusive churches. Stop attending! Stop tithing! Stop enduring these blatant lies in silence! Boycott blasphemers wherever they infest, infect, wound, and destroy!!!

    God lives within each of us. Your very own soul is the only church that you ever need. Your very own spirit should be the only religion that you ever embrace.

    We know that the hype surrounding being “cured/healed” of homosexuality is at a breaking point. Both sides have become polarized and extremes have formed. Accusations, unfair portrayals, and misplaced anger have kept too many men and women from escaping being forced to live a lie. All have fueled deception and cowardice that ruin families, cause divorces, and compel deceit via malicious “Down-Low” masquerades.

    It's time for a change. You deserve a better life and you can have it. Coming home means coming out of abusive churches and suicidal closets. It also means coming out of the offices of criminally negligent therapists who counsel homosexuals into their graves by increasing depression and suicide.

    We have to let you know that getting home won't be easy. Living lies is being encouraged by evil blasphemers who make comical and unethical claims about "instant deliverance" and "miraculous breakthroughs". Despite their deceptions, we have discovered that God purposely teaches all humans through process.

    Coming back to God, regardless of how many years you have been "in the wilderness" of pseudo-christian lies, will require committment and endurance. Coming out of living a religious fantasy may be one of the most difficult things you have ever done, but difficult is not synonymous with impossible. God specializes in things which humans think are impossible.

    Self-love is the greatest ministry to the sexually broken. True healing is always simply a labor of self-love. Therefore, our letter makes no specific political or denominational claims. It seeks no financial gains, but is birthed out of a heartfelt desire to show you a better way to live.

    For those who would reject our invitations to find true spiritual peace, we say that you have a human right to be gay or lesbian, just as you were born to be. Sex is not sexuality. Sexuality is an arbitrary identity, like race or gender. Sex is a physical act, like golfing or masturbating. Like heterosexuality, homosexuality is never a choice.

    We want you to know that you have a greater spiritual right to be honest and free. The choice is yours. Please don't stand in the way of those who no longer wish to be cowards who live religious and sexual lies. Please stop preaching to those of us who are very happy and exceptionally productive homosexuals, who are proud to embrace and love ourselves as gay or lesbian. Don't take away our choice to refuse to pretend that we can ever change. Do not slander us because we succeed where you continue to fail...

    We understand and acknowledge that the term "ex-gay" is an oxymoron and a punch line to this evil gaybashing religious joke regarding the curing/healing of homosexuality. No one can ever truly recover from their true sexual nature. One can never choose to be gay. One can only choose to pretend not to be gay. It is a deceptive and destructive choice that no godly person will ever make.

    Ex-gays pretend to be sincere as they feign sexual healing and recovery. We wonder how many members of “Powerful Change” are having homosexual sex with each other or simply lusting for each other as you read this. We wonder if they are intelligent enough to fathom that one can die a virgin or a birth parent to 10 children and STILL be a homosexual.

    We pity the dysfunctional lives that many “ex-gay” homosexual cowards feel compelled to live due to the brainwashing that makes them feel worthless and doomed to Hell. We are wounded by the learned self-hatred that fuels their intentions as they struggle to pretend that they are healed of homosexuality. They long to have their repuslively pathetic and ugly lives as toxic gays evaporate into the fog of religious myths and lies. Yet, the term “ex-gay" does adequately blur the long process of self-hatred that they endure as their living, thinking, and desires undergo drastic miseducation.

    Audre Lorde said: “Our silence will never protect us”We can testify that we are new creations in Christ, and we will no no longer be silent slaves to hateful and oppressive religions or their zealots. Millions of homosexuals like us absolutely refuse to be identified as sinners or deformities or mentally ill. We thank God for our sexual passion that makes us whole homosexual humans. We have a new and sacred identity in Christ and our future and hope is secure in that identity. If you choose to, coming out of living a lie will mean:

    Submission to Christ's rebel example against pseudo-christianity

    Dealing with the nature of homosexuality in all species

    Being honest and accountable for your sexual and spiritual actions

    Having a heart that is willing to live honestly and reject hypocrisy and lies

    Accepting the truth of God as sufficiency for your courage and freedom

    Planting yourself in a fellowship which embraces a realistic and fair approach to all human sexuality and science

     In short, the opposite of homosexuality is heterosexuality. And, the opposite of broken is whole. Heal thyself by making whole the homosexual spirit that has been broken by the throngs of “christians” who have nothing to do with Christ or God. There is nothing holy about any lie or any hatred.

    Pray to God and you will be blessed to be a superior homosexual who masters the art of living emotionally, sexually, and spiritually pure and whole. That's the goal. That's the mark. And that's our passion.

    Jesus said “Forgive them God, for they know not what they do...”:

    God is calling you. You've heard God calling you while you joined in bashing homosexuals in church pews. You've heard God in the whispers of the closeted homosexual that speaks deep inside of you. You’ve heard God in the quiet of your home where your homosexual child may never come out to you. Perhaps in the midst of the adultery or judging that you have become sick of doing, you've heard God calling you to stop hating and lying on homosexuals. We are here to let you know that coming clean and coming out of the closet are both merely one prayer away.

    We don't have all the answers, but we do have the most important one: God loves all of us unconditionally. Only God can judge us. And, God judges us only by our hearts and souls, not our sexuality. One is not righteous simply by being heterosexual, just as one is not evil simply by being homosexual.

    Haven't you felt that feeling stirring inside of you? It's God urging you to answer honestly. We too have been at that place where lies and sermons could no longer satisfy. Not another bible-toting gaybasher. Not another self-hating, guilt-ridden, and suicidal religious lover. Not another Saturday night drink/Sunday morning sitting-in-church-hangover. Not another “please wash my evil, dirty, and sinful ass clean” revival. Not another fake church singles seminar. Not another missionary charade. Not another gossipping holy house party. It left you feeling hypocritical, empty, cold, and just as sinful as the day you first enetered the closet door.

    If you are truly homosexual, we respectfully believe that homosexuality is God's will for you. We feel that loving someone of the same gender produces everything fruitful and life-giving. It reflects every living species in creation. Homosexuals have the same life giving organs as heterosexuals do and we use them often. We are often superior parents uniquely qualified to teach children superior lessons about unconditional love, courage, indelible self-esteem, and triumph.

    God’s divine and diverse natural order will always make the continuation of all life possible. It is God's will that you grow, prosper, and produce all of the diverse fruits of honest and loving relationships. Many gays have proven that these goals may be attained even in the face of cursed religious sabotage and vicious slander. Yet, real life is defiantly lived with real revolutionary results.

    I, the signer of this letter, see the truth beneath the hatred and lies of all allegedly “former homosexuals” and those who support their evil, divisive, and toxic missions, as they unite in their desire to force homosexuals to live lies. Please contact us to let us know that their sinful works are in vain. Let us know that you are ready to come home or come clean, whether you are homosexual or heterosexual at:  ambwww@yahoo.com

    We will leave the light of the truth on for you. That light will set you free. Free your mind, and your sexuality and your soul will follow...God bless you all.

    A proud lesbian who loves her divine lesbian self,

    Alicia Banks 
    ELOQUENT FURY

     

     

     

     

  • BETRAYING VENUS LANDIN... - THE ONGOING SINS OF CHARLENE COTHRAN!!!

    1997

    I remember the first time I heard of Venus Landin. It was well over a decade ago…I was producing and hosting a popular and legendary radio show, Les Chanteuses Africaines, at WRFG in Atlanta, Georgia. I heard of Venus in Atlanta’s vast black lesbian social circles...

    Suddenly in 1993, a casual acquaintance became morbid headline news. Venus had been murdered by an ex-lover named Bisa Niambi. This black lesbian murder suicide stunned the city of Atlanta.

    Later, Alice Walker made the local shock a global one when she penned a tribute and a special poem to Bisa in the acknowledgements and afterword of her classic book on female genital mutilation entitled “Warrior Marks: Female Genital Mutilation & The Sexual Binding of Women”. Alice mentioned that Bisa had been a gifted masseuse and a tragic cutter. She mentioned Bisa's visible wounds of self-mutilation that dulled her pain as she expertly practiced her profession. Alice even reprints Bisa's business card as a final tribute to her beloved reflexologist.

    I was also haunted by the memory of Bisa. This sudden villainess had been a loyal fan who often phoned me in the studio at WRFG. I still think of her when I hear the songs she requested so often. Her voice was always lonely and tortured, even as she strove to sound mellow. Often she would chat briefly and intimately during those late night studio calls. I am a very spiritually sensitive person, protected always by legions of African angels. As Bisa thanked me for soothing her musically, or spoke of the incest that tortured her incessantly, I always felt an inexplicable sense of dread…

    I am not a tragic lesbian. I have a wonderful, stable, loving family. I have never been molested. I came out to my entire family at age 22 and they love me unconditionally. I have been uniquely blessed academically and professionally. Yet, I always deeply felt Bisa's pain.

    I was wounded when I heard the inevitable gossip that followed the fatalities. Everyone talked. Most grieved. Some of us grieved for both felled sisters. Even as we whispered about karma, players, consequences, infidelity, emotional abuses, and toxic connections, these two losses left voids in the collective soul of our black lesbian and gay Atlantan community.

    Then, I had my own incident with Venus’s friend, Charlene Cothran. At that time, she was a leader of a lesbian events organization known as Hospitality Atlanta. They were hosting their first annual "Women of Color Business Expo". Curiously, they chose to request an interview at WRFG, on a reggae show hosted by a heterosexual, Rastafarian, female host named Afrikiti Kishi. Clandestinely, those members interviewed led Afrikiti to believe that they were not a lesbian organization.

    After the show, typically rabid gaybashing Jamaicans went berserk. I was implicated by association as an openly gay member of the WRFG staff, who was strangely never contacted to arrange an interview. I was also obligated, as Afrikiti’s professional peer within a revered group of afrocentric radio rebels, known as Radio Free Griots, to defend a sister host.

    Afrikiti and I respected each other as fellow afrocentric radio warriors then. That mutual respect put me in the precarious position of ethically aiding a heterosexual sister, by defending an unethical act against her by lesbians, in order to appease the unethical hatreds of rabid gay hating rastas. It was one of the most difficult and painful moments of my colorful life in Atlanta's radio scene from 1986 until 1996.

    I allowed Afrikiti to address this deception on my show and clear her name with her gaybashing fans. Ironically and sadly, years later, I would resign with rage from the Radio Free Griots at WRFG, in the throes of a public war about homosexuality and their own constant gay bashing. My departure and our battles would garner personal bodyguards and national media attention. I won that war…

    I went on to host Outlook at WIGO and appear frequently at WGST. I launched my website and column database, Eloquent Fury, online in 1992. Later, I relocated to Oakland, California where I produced and hosted Les Chanteuses Africaines at KPFA, KPFB, and KFCF… But, I will miss WRFG and the Radio Free Griots eternally, especially Afrikiti…

    When Charlene relocated to Hamilton, New Jersey to begin a magazine dedicated to Venus, I sincerely wished her well. And, from a distance I watched that same entrepreneurial drive that fueled the foul incident at WRFG help make Venus magazine a great success. Until today, I was very proud of Charlene.

    Now, I read that Charlene is no longer a lesbian and that Venus magazine will become a publication dedicated expressly to reformed homosexuals/“ex-gays.” Is this not a second brutal murder of the memory of the beloved lesbian Venus Landin? Is there any better way to buck dance on a grave? What better way to make a buck these days than by profiting from racist white neocon pimps of black preacher whores who would consider such a rag a literal literary godsend? Can’t you envision cover stories by T. D. Jakes and Jesse Jackson right now?

    For the record, sex is not sexuality. Lots of curious, lonely, amoral, whorish, heterosexuals engage in homosexual sex daily. Some are porno stars or prostitutes. Some are just sick and tired of being abused by heterosexuals. Some are bored and bi-curious. Many of these persons pose as serial lesbians when they are truly sinister bisexuals. Many are selfish and abusive down low cowards who are completely homosexual and merely pose as bisexuals.

    Sexuality is never a choice. Consensual sex is always a choice. Sexuality is a complex emotional identity. Sex is a simple physical act. The “ex-gay” myths that Venus magazine will now tout only add more confusion to these chaotic sexual frays. It encourages people to make impossible choices. It validates similarly fake choices already made by deceitful others.

    Every “ex-gay” who was truly gay is still gay. They may never have gay sex again. But, they will always be gay. One can die a virgin and be a biological homosexual. Virtually every phony "ex-gay" always returns to gay sex and usually gets busted doing so. So, let us count the days until Charlene is caught creeping back to lesbian sex...

    It is not necessary to demonize all gays to behave bisexually. Alice Walker did not bash ex-lover Tracy Chapman or all gays when she resumed a heterosexual love. Prince did not bash gays when he stopped tongue kissing Brown Mark on stage. Diana Ross and Cindy Birdsong did not bash gays when their lesbian affair was outed? So, why then does Charlene feel the need to bash and betray all gays as she optimistically hunts for a new man?!? Such gross excess drama usually signals deceit.

    I never judge anyone by sexuality, race, or class. I will always judge everyone exclusively by their actions. As aforementioned, I have seen Charlene in entrepreneurial action before. She has now taken being unethical to a cosmic level. She has ruthlessly betrayed her readers. But, more importantly she has shockingly and brutally betrayed her friend Venus.

    There is absolutely nothing godly about most religions and most religious people. Charlene’s latest act demonstrates that expertly. The only thing more loathsome than self-hatred is hating those who love you. Nothing could be more hateful to the readers who loved this magazine than to bastardize it, by grotesquely morphing it into a rag dedicated to the sheer fantasy of “ex-gays.”

    Adding insult to injury, Charlene is daring to leave the name of a revered late lesbian at the magazine’s masthead. Even when she cannot love her lesbian self, Charlene has a duty to love those who loved her magazine and who love Venus. Keeping Venus’s name upon an “ex-gay” magazine is akin to owning a magazine that celebrates O. J. Simpson and naming it Malcolm X. It is like devoting a magazine to afrocentrism and naming it Michael Jackson. It is like dedicating a magazine to Nazis and calling it Africa. It is like dedicating a magazine to poverty and naming it Oprah. It is like dedicating a magazine to legitimate musical talent and naming it P-Diddy. It is like dedicating a magazine to feminism and calling it Eminem. It is like dedicating a magazine to gun control and calling it DMX...

    God creates homosexuals in every living species. We proud out homosexuals are precisely who we are born to be. Charlene has the human right to live an ungodly lie. But, Venus died a lesbian, not a liar. An ethical person would kill the magazine and start anew with a new name more befitting a blasphemous, neocon-in-blackface, fantasy rag. Charlene has chosen to kill her legacy with gay readers and the memory of her dead lesbian friend Venus instead.

    Charlene's sudden insanity has been created by some evil preachers who have convinced her that God hates gays as much as they do. God loves all of us just as we are. We are the homosexuals that God created us to be.

    God is love. Gaybashers pretend that gays do not love each other. Gaybashers never even mention gay love. They are singularly and pornographically obsessed with gay sex. Now, as all neocon rags, Venus magazine will profit immensely by exclusively condemning gay sex. It will ignore gay love. Fortunately, the universal love of God is never so brazenly selective or amorally capitalist.

    We live in an evil world. We need no more rabidly capitalist liars within it. It is filled with evil preacher pimps, who bash gays daily for passion and profit. Charlene has joined their mindlessly masochistic evil flocks. Her mangled magazine is her first official tithing to her new congregations. Her confused soul is the greatest debt paid. This entire ugly saga is further solid evidence that black gaybashers are indeed the most hateful of all.

    Now, let the doors of the church say Amen…

     

    Dear Venus and Bisa: May you both rest in peace…regardless…AB

     


  • EDDIE MURPHY & THE "OTHER NIGGERS" TOO!!!

    1997

     

    I proudly repeat: “It IS a fact of life!!! Most gaybashers ARE gay!!!”

     

    Eddie Murphy is a legendary gaybasher who has set millions of gaydars off for years. Like Armstrong Williams, Eddie has been busted. Now, he too must begin paying his retroactive karmic debts, though they are far less than those of Armstrong.

     

    Eddie was busted on “The Boulevard” in Los Angeles, after picking up a transvestite prostitute, according to news sources.  This comes as no surprise to gay America, where whispers about Eddie’s closeted homosexuality are very old news.

     

    No secure heterosexual would ever spew the shockingly toxic venom that is forever captured on film in “Eddie Murphy: Raw”; a film that is equally toxic regarding African women. Many gay men, especially closeted ones, loathe women. They share the misogyny of many heterosexual men. This sexist hatred was recently evidenced to me in reactions to my column on Armstrong.

     

    For example, a "brother" recently attacked me regarding my reference to all gays as “the other niggers” in America. It is pathetic to witness how quickly Black men will attack Black women. It is also amusing to witness when they perilously dare to do so to a lioness likemyself.

     

    Comparisons are not synonymous with equations. No fool would ever dare to EQUATE homophobia with racism in America. But, glaring similarities abound!!! Everywhere, everyday, homosexuals are refused services in public places, stalked, beaten, arrested, murdered, raped, verbally harassed, fired, evicted, legally discriminated against, rejected, slandered, libeled, scapegoated, and generally tortured, simply because they are homosexual.

     

    Some persons dared to compare Rosa Parks to Ellen Degeneres, stating “Ellen  never had to sit at the back of the bus”. This foolish comparison is both comical and pointless. A legendary heroine like Rosa has no business in the same sentence with a sitcom actress. Unlike these fools, I do not blind my reality with racist delusion.

     

    Thus, I know that Ellen, sudden superstar that she is, may decide to take a bus trip in Dixie, today. And, while sitting in the front of the bus, would most likely have her head bashed in by a gaybashing hick, with a rebel flag in one hand, and a baseball bat in the other!!!  She would be kicked OFF of the bus to the cheers of  the other passengers,  yelling: "Stryt Waaat Purr...Daaam raaat, Yaaankee daaak, gwone home!!!"...[Translation: "Straight White Power...Damn right, Yankee dyke, go home!!!"...] At such time, I seriously doubt that her former front seat would provide any solace.

     

    Unlike Blacks who revere their preferred nigger status, I am keenly aware of my double nigger status, as one who is both Black and gay. I refuse to revere either debased ranking! I will continue to attack all who gaybash, just as I attack all who are neocon white supremacists. Eddie and Armstrong are NOT my brothers and they NEVER will be!!

     

    The day that brothers can attack their real enemies as quickly as they attack a sister or a gay person, THAT is the day that the revolution will come!!! WE MUST STOP FIGHTING FOR OUR SPACES AT THE BOTTOM!!! The New World Order is flowing DOWN upon us ALL!! Eddie and Armstrong are supreme and evil agents of that order.

     

    My attacks upon ALL of my enemies are made with every ounce of strength that my soul can muster. I seek revolution and call out the truth, with the invincible power of African goddesses who have been victorious across oceans of time!! My enemies are ALWAYS fair game. ANYWHERE. ANYTIME. Regarding ANYTHING.

     

    Defiantly, I will continue to display the true warrior spirit that many of my "brothers" have yet to discover...

     

     

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  • THE SINS OF DONNIE MCCLURKIN - HE FELL DOWN BUT WE ARE UP!!!

    2004

     

    I have been silent about Donnie McClurkin's increasingly boring and blatant gaybashing. For a while, I pitied his tragic childhood so much that I excused his misguided venting. But, I can be silent no more. His recent interview in a gospel magazine is my last straw!

     

    Donnie says that he was raped by an uncle as a child, and a cousin as a teen. I hate that these horrible acts violated his youth and wounded his spirit. I never condone any act of sexual violence or pedophilia. But, I also never blanket my hatreds. Why does Donnie feel the need to bash all homosexuals and curse us all in the name of God in order to detail his individual and uniquely tragic homosexual experiences? Why is he blaming all of us because he fell down? Why drag us all down with him and his molesters? Many of us are proud to stand and proclaim our homosexuality and our divinity. And, we dare to do so simultaneously and eternally.

     

    Donnie says that he was not born a homosexual. He says his homosexuality was caused by his traumas. This may be so. It is also true that millions of girls and boys who are homosexually raped as children never become homosexuals. It is also true that millions of homosexuals are born gay. Millions of homosexuals are like myself. I was blessed with an idyllic childhood. I was extremely sheltered and never sexually molested by anyone. Yet, I am and I have always been a lesbian.

     

    Why is Donnie unable to separate his own tragic experiences from droves of homosexuals who have never experienced anything nearly as tragic as his miserable and pathetic life? Why is Donnie's gaybashing getting more venomous? Could there be some irresistibly sexy new choir boy in his midst? Could his alleged heterosexual bliss be waning? Why is his gaybashing becoming more and more blasphemously toxic?

     

    Maybe he should stop singing for a spell and actually study a bible. He will find the magic of redemption in biblical truth. He will be truly healed by the revolutionary rebellion of self love. He will find that God does not hate him, even if he is still a homosexual.

     

    Donnie needs to take a break from his studios, and visit the biological sciences section of a library where he may research precisely how God creates homosexuals like me in virtually every living species. Unlike Donnie, we are proudly being who we are born to be. We are free of trauma and confusion. And, we refuse to be damned or slandered by any quasi-illiterate pseudo-christians. We refuse to be cursed by spiritually, intellectually, emotionally, and sexually inferior humans with god complexes as huge as their biblical fables.

     

    Maybe some people need to believe that God hates homosexuality, simply so that they can have a reason to feign at resisting it. However, fear alone is rarely a sufficient deterrent for any reform. People fear Hell. Yet, they flagrantly sin by boldly judging homosexuals incessantly. People fear prison. Yet, they commit heinous crimes daily. Poor Donnie and all of his fellow "holy" gaybashers fear homosexuality. Yet, what do they do in the dark?

     

    Thousands of gaybashing Sunday pastors spend Saturday nights sexing with their gay choir directors. Millions of macho men who bash homosexual men are perpetually drunken with lust for lesbians. I have to beat men off with sticks daily. And, when they find out I am a lesbian, I have to carry bigger sticks.

     

    Sex is not sexuality. Sex is a physical act. Sexuality is an emotional identity. One can die a virgin, gaybash eternally, marry a member of the opposite sex, claim to be sexually healed, abstain, procreate, or be celibate for life, and still be a homosexual all the while. We all know who we are in our hearts, irrespective of the actions and words we use as camouflage.

     

    If Donnie was as cured and blissful as he claims to be, he would not have time to hate and slander us homosexuals as he does. Watch those haters who are loudest, always. Like Eddie Murphy, Andre 3000, and J. Edgar Hoover, they always protest far too much...

     

    If he was truly Christian, Donnie would reserve his energies to help others who were raped and confused like himself. He would be too busy loving them to hate and curse all of us. He would be a counselor not a liar. He would be a comforter not a murderer of spirits and souls. He would testify rather than signify. He would find more peace and piss me off less.

     

    Has Donnie forgotten how alienated he felt in churches before his alleged reform? Has he forgotten the uniquely excruciating pain of divine hatred and spiritual rejection? The only pain that is worse is the pain of living a lie. I believe Donnie knows that greater pain...

     

    The black church has rivers of blood on its collective hands. Donnie's hands grow bloodier every time I hear him speak...Surely he remembers all of the lost souls he met in clubs, bars and restrooms. Surely he has not forgotten all of those wounded gays whose families have told them: "We hate you! God hates you! You are going to hell!"   So they are wandering and wallowing in vices. They are whores, alcoholics, and junkies because they know they are homosexuals. They know they cannot be "healed" or "fixed". So, they figure they will fully enjoy their doom to Hell. And, when they get there, they will make sure that they do not have to wait in that long line...behind all those preachers and gospel celebrities who judged them until they hated themselves.

     

    Fortunately, homosexuals like myself are immune to such madness and moronism. We refuse to be broken. We expose biblical lies. We excel in defiance. We know that we are divine. We know God. And, we know your bibles. You know that we are your worst nightmares. And, we hate your REAL sins far more than you could ever even begin to hate our mythical "sin". That makes us invincible.

     

    And, we love being so. We love our gay lives. We love our gay selves. Like Phyllis Hyman sang: "We share a sacred love". Like Bernadette Cooper sang:"There ain't nothing you can do."   Like Diana Ross sang: "If there's a cure for this, I don't want it."

    We are here. Get used to it. We have always been here. We will be here forever. And, we pray for ignorant, lost, and confused souls like Donnie. We know them well. They send our gaydars into red alert! Their offenses make those alarms match the color of our rage.

     

    Sweet Tea: Black Gay Men of the South (Caravan Book)Their Own Receive Them Not: African American Lesbians and Gays in Black Churches

     

  • BERNICE & ALVEDA KING - PRETENDERS TO THE KING THRONE...PERPETUALLY DISGRACING REGAL KIN!!!

    {Notice how silent the homohater Bernice King has been since her best homohating homosexual buddy Eddie Long has been busted?...They were tag team torturers of homosexuals and they both conspired to eternally desecrate Coretta King's corpse recently!...They legendarily marched to dishonor Dr. Martin Luther King's sacred ground too!...Karma is real!!!

    Who has next?}

    BERNICE KING - SHAMING HER MOM AND DAD AGAIN!!!! 

  • REMEMBERING TUPAC AMARU SHAKUR...ETERNALLY!

    {2010- I miss Tupac every single day... I especially miss how LOUDLY he would be helping me call out Hobama for his elitist abuse of poor black people daily!!!}

     

    Holler If You Hear Me: Searching for Tupac ShakurThe FBI War on Tupac Shakur and Black Leaders: U.S. Intelligence's Murderous Targeting of Tupac, MLK, Malcolm, Panthers, Hendrix, Marley, Rappers and Linked Ethnic LeftistsTupac: ResurrectionKilling of Tupac ShakurTupac Shakur

    Got Your Back: Protecting Tupac in the World of Gangsta RapTupac - Resurrection (Widescreen Edition)Inside A Thug's HeartThru My Eyes: Thoughts on Tupac Amaru Shakur in Pictures and Words

  • THE TIMELESS DR. MARTIN LUTHER KING JR. - ON HIS “LETTER FROM A BIRMINGHAM JAIL”

    {2010 - Happy Birthday Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.! Thank you for everything. We miss you brother... We really need you here to check Obama on war, poverty, racism, homohatred etc!!! He is a vile, amoral, blackish, elitist pretender to your regal throne!!!...AB}

  • HOBAMA'S AFRICOM = AFRI-CON!!! - THE AFRICAN-AMERICAN MASK UPON THE NEW WORLD ORDER INSIDE AFRICA

    Hobama/King Shrub 2.0 has impoverished millions as he has unleashed his rabidly elitist policies upon America’s economic depression. His next slaughters will take place on African soil. The overseer-in-chief is targeting blacks overseas as his hungry, mindless, homeless, and jobless black drones stateside still blindly cheer him on.